will the beautiful colors of autumn
protect against the oncoming frost
the moon in the sky
is yours and mine
wherever we are
anchored by the stars
hung high over time

will the depth of winters chill
thaw in time to greet the crocus
deep black skies before the dawn
keep us hidden
as the nature resets
patience guides us
towards tomorrow

will the hopeful aroma of spring
dance endlessly, laughing with the solstice
singing blackbirds
carry dreams in their tune
another chance for love
bringing freedom from the past
breathing in from open windows

will summer’s warm embrace
catch us early and hold us late
gentle red and amber evenings
umbrella our hopes
of a tomorrow like today
lay with me
your hand in mine

your outline is traced in my mind
where you once laid
the night’s whispers
dominate the cold night air
as I stir
in deafening silence
awaiting the warmth
of tomorrows dawn
loneliness is chased
by timeless memories
resilient strength is slowly building
battling the fear
of my own eventually fate

the battle continues

seeking simple happiness, days of peace

you have paid your dues

yet badgered by the disease

escaped by few

thirteen years

is there a debt unpaid?

you are relentless, we know

the lesson is not clear

how can we learn

sadness, emptiness, pain

not mine , yes mine, and yours

leave now

I know you won’t

I love you more than I have expressed

thank you dad

you didn’t knock

you kicked the door in

your seeds of fear were sown immediately

your evil harvest would someday be full

you have stolen her words

you have weakend her independence

you have addled her mind

you have numbed half her body

you haunt her with loneliness

you are taking aim at her spirit

fuck you

she is not yours to take

the seeds of her heart and spirit will forever be hers

and ours

as she has planted them within all of us

you didn’t knock

stand near me
and calm my pace
fill your cup
and drink me till your blind

it’s the life we’re living
not a soul to blame
the howling wind scatters my thoughts

ain’t nothing wrong
with our chemistry
it’s harder to speak
when others are listening

it’s a cheap disease
I don’t want to lose this fight
a complicated story
around the bend it’s always night

I never imagined much could compare to my deep and passionate love for her. The constant that is her absence is formidable in every way.

stars in the sky mapped the course

there for eternity, but you were not looking

distinct parallels change lanes

in the morning mist

a joyful heart full

with shining eyes

swiftly dropped the grains

as the moon shone high above

rhythm found its pace

changing speed unannounced

walking on

with eyes in the sky