did you hear me calling out to you

     a whisper at first

     growing to a scream

     returning  to a whisper 

did you see my hand reaching out to you

     maybe you could not see

     in the darkness behind the tears 

     it was there

did you feel my heart beating for you

     unlike the calm beats when you sat by my side

     now anxious erratic thumps and pauses

     you control the pace,  it hasn’t stopped